The Point of Breaking

Sitting here I am humbled. I am guilty of living life as though I were no different from everyone else. It’s easy to simple to stay back and not go share the Gospel to that person when you know the Holy Spirit is leading you. It is very logical that if someone is homeless and on the street, that you avoid passing them because they might come up to you and you would have to talk with them. Or they could attack you, rob you, or harm you. It’s easy not to care, if your heart is selfish.

And that is what I realized I was. Selfish.

Christ has called us to something different.

I don’t understand it, but why do we not walk around as those who have been changed? Why do we live in fear of what the world is doing, or the people of the world? Why do we cringe in our spirits and our hearts begin to beat quickly when the Holy Spirit is leading us to go and speak with someone or visit our neighbors?

The answer is simple and clear: We are selfish.

My Confession

We simply are not willing to give everything up for the sake of Christ. How do I know that? Because it is true in my own life. Every one of those scenarios I gave above are true in my own life. There are times that I have clearly felt the Holy Spirit speaking to me and leading me to so something for the sake of the Kingdom, but I have made excuses or suppressed the leading of the Spirit simply because it made me uncomfortable, it would require work, cause me to go out of my way, cost me money, put my life in danger, and on and on I could go. What is the spirit I am speaking in? It is nothing more than a spirit of selfishness. I would have to give up something in order to be obedient to the Lord. 

Isn’t that what Christ calls us to do anyway?

This afternoon I was listening to a sermon by Eric Ludy and found a video on his website talking about this very thing. Once I watched it, I turned my body around and kneeled down on the chair and lifted up my voice and wept. I realized that I was holding things out on God. That I was not willing to sacrifice these worldly and earthly things for the sake of His kingdom and for the Glory of His name. The realization of how foolish I have been and the conviction of the Holy Spirit came over me and confessed my sin of holding those things out on God and surrendered completely to him. Giving everything, my life, my job, my friendships, my earthly possessions and, oh how I cried at this one, even my dear wife and child to Him for the sake of His Glory. It was at this point that God brought me to the point of breaking, when I realized that it was not my life to live, but His. He didn’t give His own blood, voluntarily go to the horrible cross, willingly be tortured, nail pierced, hung, and crucified, simply so that I could live a happy and pleasant life here on earth. He did all of that so that I could live for HIM, so that HE could receive the reward of His suffering.

I am still being broken. I pray that God breaks me every day, because my suborn heart needs to be broken and my flesh will want to raise it’s ugly head. Please pray for me, that God would continue to break this area of my life and empty me so that I can be filled with His Spirit and follow His leading in joyful obedience.

I encourage you to check out this video by Eric Ludy. But be warned, you might be broken.  I pray that you are.


I am ashamed of Christ

Jesus said “For whoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him will the Son of Man also be ashamed when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.” Mark 8:38 (ESV)

And I must admit, I am ashamed.

Have you ever thought about that? You know your next door neighbor does not acknowledge God, and does not have a vibrant relationship with Jesus Christ. You pass hundreds to thousands of people everyday whose souls are in despair, and they don’t even know it. Will you tell them? You see men at work who are struggling with their marriage, women in your circle of friends who think they must have the body of a super model, the girl in your neighborhood who is always sitting by herself with an expression of loneliness, and the proud, stuck up guy who is actually in need of a friend.

And I actually have the audacity to do nothing about it.

But there is nothing I can do, is there? No, absolutely nothing. So you ask my why I can’t? Well I will let Jesus answer your question.

I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5

And this is where conviction sets in. Do you feel it? If you don’t, then ask God to pour out His Spirit upon you, and break your heart! That is what I am praying for myself. Why? Because I can’t do anything in the power of my own flesh! Don’t think for a moment that I am content with doing nothing. The Spirit of Christ grabs hold of my heart and shows me the needs of those around me and the command that I have to go and meet those needs, whether it be to share the life giving message of the gospel, be a loving friend, or give some cash to the guy sitting on the street corner.

“My prayer and hearts desire, is to be so passionately, and completely sold out for Christ that when someone looks at me, they don’t see Nathan Hamilton, they see Jesus Christ.”

But I can’t do anything about it! It is only by the power of Christ that I am able to step out and allow Christ to use these hands, these feet, this mind, this mouth, and the worldly blessings I have been lent, to do the work He has called me to do.

So why am I ashamed? Because I don’t abide. If I am not abiding in Christ, then I can do nothing. That is why it is so important that I spend time deeply searching the Word of Christ, and pouring out my spirit before the throne of Christ in prayer on a daily basis. I must abide in Christ.

The curse of man

This morning I read Luke 6, and the Lord pierced my spirit with this verse:

“Blessed are you when people hate you and when they exclude you and revile you and spurn your name as evil, on account of the Son of Man! Rejoice in that day, and leap for joy, for behold, your reward is great in heaven; for so their fathers did to the prophets.” v. 22-23

How often do I allow the opinion of man influence my choices, and specifically my decisions to follow in the footsteps of Christ. Am I willing to die to myself and abide in Christ? My Savior wasn’t phased. He followed the will of God almighty without flinching, caring not about the thoughts of men but rather the state of their hearts before God. I am praying that God wil give me that same desire.

Seeking the Glory of Christ

The more I live, the more I am convinced that I cannot live a life focused on myself. That is why I have the issues that I mentioned above! When my focus is on myself, I can’t live as God requires, but when I am completely sold out to Christ, when I am denying my flesh, and I have no consideration for the opinions of men, that is when I can be effective for Christ. My prayer and hearts desire, is to be so passionately, and completely sold out for Christ that when someone looks at me, they don’t see Nathan Hamilton, they see Jesus Christ.

Are you ashamed of Christ? If your answer is no, then what are you doing to radically change the world around you for the Glory of Christ? If your answer is yes, then what are you going to do to change it?


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